Chiped creaking lips, blurred vision and rocking world.... thats how the world was beyond the sensible senses of my being. The world I always dreaded to go into, but I was there and, not surprisingly (but troubling enough), was liking it. SO much I miss YOU. This is the world you wanted to be in, did you not? See I am here as well.
Every soul around me is in the same floating world under and above the colourful lights twisting their bodies into different positions and shapes. someone is breaking and someone is walking on the clouds. he is grabbing her and she is after him, and look there, they are in their own world oblivious to the passage of time or place. What am I doing here? Well I am trying to grow down, all that i have skipped during so many different junctures of times.
AHHHH.....I HAVE SO MUCH GROWING DOWN TO DO. will I be able to do so? I don’t know.
One thing for sure that this is the place which I have avoided all my life but still now I find myself here.
OHHH... I MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH. See I am here as well.
Why is it that I was always told that it is wrong to go there where i m standing right now, no one else seems to feel guilty of any crime except me, myself and me only.why is it that its not bad for them but it is bad for me. I am enjoying myself so what issss wrong. everything seems possible. I am the king of the world. So what is wrong....i never got the answer, though mirror showed me the Image of a man with red (or rather PINKish) cheeks, ears and definately RED eyes. Who was this guy I never met him before but still he was there looking at me as if trying to figure out who I was. I left him their to figure out whatever he wanted to.
At 3:30 in the morning I was running on the roads of London trying get to the bus stop on time so I don’t miss my bus. I saw the car race that I had only seen in films like “fast and furious”. there were all sorts of these most expensive and latest models of cars like Ferrari, Lambuigini, and many more whose name I don’t know. it was at 3:30 in the morning on a side road adjacent to cromwell road, just in front of science museum. Should i keep running or stop to admire the beauty of these mechanical beasts. I stopped, for a second and started running again, u know why because i wanted to get back home before the sun rises, because I dont want to belong to the world which I was coming back from. I wanted to wake up in my home on my bed and not feeling odd at going back towards the place, to get into a place where I should already be at that time. I wanted to be snug in my blanket while it still was dark And I still could feel as if it was night and not morning. I am not a vampire who should go to bed when the Sun rises, I am HUMAN.And that is what I always was and will always be.
I was back in my world. Shivering in the london's freezing chill of the night, even though it is spring but night are cold enough to bring your senses back to land.
SO much I miss YOU.
So I am back in world, but am I happy to be back?..... Good question.. I don’t have a straight answer to that question. I loved the other world more than I should have, but, I don’t belong there. I belong to this world where I am now. I know I will go back there every now and then.
Still it is painful to be back.
Will it be same ever again, NO, I don’t think so.
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