Dont Know what to do??

It seems stress follows me everywhere I go. Its happening all over again. Why cant I talk, why can people see my faults...why cant I hide them as good as they can ignore their own. I hate this all.
Why can I not live a life the way I want to live. Why there have to be rules with every thing. How far away can I go from everyone.....because this is for sure I aint living for others, except a few selected ones.

Enough is enough you like it or not.

A bit update!

Every day, so many moments and so many thoughts. And every time I think of recording them on this page. but by the time I m on my keyboard, the mental slate is clean and I remember no more.
Anyways, for last couple of months nothing is going as I would like it to go. But at the same time, on the other front the things are doing well. after ages I am writing.

just today got the news that my passport is back at the consultant's office, which is a good news. And which also means that I have to start thinking about my holidays and about applying for PR much before I was going to. anyway earlier the better. No complaints. Cant wait to go home....its been more than a year this time since I was at home last.

Well, home, here I come once again. SOON....just not yet.

Sweet and Sour

Yes as the title suggests. Its a very important faze in my life.......all going Sweet and Sour... just like Golgappa. You want to eat it and when you eat it you cry because of mirchi in it. A time of finalising the decisions made long ago. A time when I got what I wanted. At the same time missing what I dont have.

Last two months have been something a sweet and sour chutney. Good things happening hand in hand with the Bad ones. Happiness with the sufferings. On one hand being awarded with a much desired award and on the other hand being crushed under the burden of responsibility, from which there is no escape.

On one hand being Happy on getting extension, then on the other that means stupid financial loses, nonrefundible tickets, uncertainty in future planning. What to do , when to do and how to do? To top it all, the whole physical structure surrounding this thin skeleton needs servicing. Starting from the top hair to the tip of the nail of the biggest toe.

May be thats not topping it enough, so here come the different kind of service providers like BT.who for some reason decides to disconnect their services and charge me for terminating it before the due time limit.

Maine kya kisi ki bhains bhaga li thi kya?


Smile :) you are in bed with fever and cold and tonsils....and who knows what next.

Ye writing ki beemari lentor lagne pe hi kyon chadti hai.