जीवन की अापाधापी (Hustle-Bustle of Life)

इस जीवन मे हमेशा कोई ना कोई चहल-पहल बनी ही रहती है। आज हो, गुजरा हुआ कल या फिर आने वाला कल, हमेशा कुछ ना कुछ ऐसा लगा ही रहता है जो आपको चैन से बैठने नही देता। कल तक मै अपने वीज़ा के लिए परेशान था, indefinite मिलेगा या नही मिलेगा, वीज़ा extend होगा या नही होगा..... वगैरह-वगैरह।
उसका तो कोई हल नही निकला अभी तक, पर कम से कम एक दिशा तो मिल ही गयी है फिलहाल, सो जो होगा देखा जाएगा।

अब एक काम खत्म हुआ तो दूसरा सर पे खडा है। अब अगले हफ्ते घर बदलना है। आज अपने नये मकान मालिक से मिला, deposit दिया, शाम को कागज़ी कार्यवाही होनी बाकी है। अगर सब ठीक-ठाक रहा तो hopefully अगले हफ्ते तक मै॑ shift हो जाउ॑गा.

दखते है॑ अौर क्या-क्या नया है।

Still WONDERING!

Sometimes I think that why do we do what we do? Why do we laugh, why do we cry, why do we feel miserable and make others miserable, why do we feel pain and inflict pain? what makes us happy or for that reason what is HAPPINESS.

Why do we do so many things which we dont want to do and why don't we do so many things that we want to do? There are so many questions in this mind and so many confused answers. answers with there own different reasonings, and logics.

Normally I am a very straight forward person, I say whatever come in my mind and to whoever, but why does my tongue gets tied up when i want convey my feelings to someone? Normally I find a way through the problems I face during the course of the day, but then why can't I figure out how to get around this feelings stuff? You dislike someone, you tell it to his face, but when you like someone, why is it so damn difficult to tell them how you feel?
I have just dropped this girl to the bus stop, and I may never ever see her again. I walked with her for a mile or some in the middle of the night just to spend some more time with. trying to preserve every word every moment. But all we talked about was work and colleagues. The whole time. Yes a little about me and very little about her. but nowhere near enough to be comfortable to ask her that can/will you be mine ........forever (I dont know if thats even feasible).

But then, thats what feelings are. you dont control them. Even if you dont let them control you; you still dont control them.

Here I go again : Imagine me and you ...I do ........so Happy togetherrrrr...........????????????