Acknowledgement

Everyone in this world has a desire, and most of us have the desire to be something or someone in life. Everyone strives to achieve a height, a target, a goal. Some chase an achievable target whereas some just chase an illusion. But in either case,  how do you know that you are moving in the right direction. 

I have never strived to be on the top, to be someone. Yes I have desires, I have dreams. But more than my desire to achieve those targets, there is something else that keeps me going. Which stops me from doing things that I shouldn't do. 

Its my desire to be a better human being, a better person in life. 

I would  rather be the most unsuccessful person on the planet than being a selfish, self-appreciating a&$£h@le, who tramp upon others and crush them under their feet to get their targets achieved. They do it because it seems to be the only way to reach where they want to be.  And thats the reason I am not there.

Some times I get a bit depressed, thinking that why am I what I am. And it is in such times the ACKNOWLEDGEMENT of what I am, by others, lifts my spirit. To remind me that it is not a bad thing to be what I am. I don't have to be the best. I am good as i am.

I am writing down the lines from a farewell note that one of my colleagues recently wrote for  me as a parting note. It goes like:

"Dear Abhi,

Thank you for sharing your quirky sense of humor , Indian music and desire for Niceness despite all the pressure & stress. Wish you all the best."

Its this kind of notes, an unexpected reminder of that people do acknowledge what you do, even when chose not to say anything about it. 

"Desire for Niceness" exactly, that is my desire. To be a good person, a nice person .... whom when people remember, they remember as a person they love, and not the person they fear or despise.