God ........

Just yesterday I was thinking about God. Thinking do I believe in God or not. And I answered myself that, yes I believe in God but only when I have to complain or just when I have to thank him. Other times I can't say. There had been times in the near past when I was extremely stressed and busy, not just for the professional reasons but for the personal ones as well. But I never thought of Him. And now all of a sudden the clouds have started moving and I can see the Light. 

Everything is getting into place so peacefully as if some unknown controller is controlling the threads of everything that happens in the life. First you struggle with every bit of the jumbled up thread and in the end it straightens up as if it was never confused.

 And the moment I was about to thank God for everything, I heard about Mumbai. So what do I do now, Do I thank Him or complain to Him that why do some people are such morons so as to take others' lives in the name of Him. 

Should I be happy for my short term happiness or should I be sad for the permanent damage done to the lives of thousands of people.

And then I start re-analyzing my belief, which I know will never be lost for-ever. It will always be there, may be in some dormant form and will arise from time to time to either Thank Him or to complain to Him.

I decided not to write any thing about the politics or the politicians, because its a dirty business, politics. Even criticising it is a waste of time and words.

I am not sure if this post makes any sense, as it seems like stray thoughts poured on to the blog, but that the state of my mind, stray. one thought linking to the other and further on.